The Last BBS

I want to organize everything before I can live life.
I want to make spreadsheets and make sure everything is just so
I don't want to fly by the seat of my pants, yet sometimes I do because it is neccesary, things don't always work perfectly that way, but AT LEAST I DON'T STARVE!

I drove out of work today after staying late to finish 2 items that had been handed to me to finish in the morning. I didn't really have to get them done today or stay late. My hours had already been turned in-a couple days I came in later and left earlier than normal this week so I feel like I made up for it.

Anyway, when I drove out of work and towards the "West Wing Group" I let everything from the day and week go.

I let go of the fact that on a Friday night I really wanted to go home and organize my shopping list and everything and anything else instead of being social.
I could totally do that, all week long, I could make sure that I have everything in order and so deny myself the social time I often crave.

Or I could just say "Fuck it" and live life. Like actually live life and just go "Who cares" "Whatever" "No one will die" "Everything will be fine"

FUCK IT LIVE LIFE YES I wish I could do that but that would mean getting off the couch

Noooo!!!! I mean yes!!!!!
Come visit and ho on a hike with me. You can work remotely from here even!

I've thought of moving somewhere nicer, since I could literally work my job from anywhere.

But there would have to be BOSS BITCH hi-speed internet available.

I will let you know when that happens here. Lol.

I just put on the bulletin board: looking for someone to hike with Sat/ Sun.
Maybe someone will respond! Putting myself out there! Ahhh

Eggs Loki wrote: ↑Sat Jun 03, 2023 3:33 pm I've thought of moving somewhere nicer, since I could literally work my job from anywhere.

But there would have to be BOSS BITCH hi-speed internet available.

Just move to the PDX area.

Tonight's dilemma:
Play outdoor volleyball at someone's house I haven't been to yet
Or lay in the hammock and read a book

I really want to read a book
My body hurts grom hiking
And I need to eat

I opted for a hammock, book and a conversation with a friend!

I feel like I am almost always in a state of guilt. I WONDER WHY THAT IS?! OMG ANd or I am almost always at conflict with myself. I need some daily affirmations.

Such as:
Don't fuck this up

You feel guilty for not moving to PDX and renting an apartment and texting " DR DAVE COME AND WATCH MY GARDEN WHILE I MAKE YOU A STEAK".

For some reason this thread has caused this song to be stuck in my head.

Dr Dave wrote: ↑Wed Jun 07, 2023 10:42 pm You feel guilty for not moving to PDX and renting an apartment and texting " DR DAVE COME AND WATCH MY GARDEN WHILE I MAKE YOU A STEAK".

Indeed.

The garden could be up to something!